what the fuck

just as i started to actually feel sad about what had turned out between us, she immediately proved that i was completely wrong about this sadness. just as i got reminded 'but we were so close' and that 'she was such a wonderful friend', she again showed me how 'evil' she was. i mean, so i got it wrong when i thought that pack of bran flakes on the counter was mine and i am sorry to have mistaken it. but you don't have to pretend you don't care and then say, 'maybe you've eaten it and you forgot, and you thought that you didn't eat it and so you took mine'-- what the fuck is that?! (there's one already open in my cupboard and she's like: did you forget that you've got one already?)

she treated it as if i did it on purpose, as if i meant to take away her bran flakes to irritate her. i can't believe how stupid one can be when one loses the ability to trust others. and it's totally bush- 'if you're not my friend you are my enemy' type of thing. totally stupid. and there i was, thinking that there was friendliness and connection coming back in the air between us. i am so wrong.