she just came in my room this morn, starting first with some practicals and then quickly switching to what her semi-bf has been reacting to her former affairs with some other guy in May after their (first?) breakup last year.
she just went on and on and i felt like a counsellor sitting there, listening. she said she was upset. and then she added 'not with you, but with x'. so i keep on thinking, 'what is this?'
so, she needs me. probably because i am about the only person she knows who is willing to listen and actually understands what she's saying. i want to give her that privilege of being listened to while i can, but cannot do it without being wondering- so what are we now? some hypocrites pretending to be 'friends' when she decides she needs my ears? (and for that matter, my brain and english comprehension skills as well) there are things we haven't settled between us, so are we going to keep on ignoring them and be 'friends' who share feelings? i was trying to avoid her as much as i could in the house, and now with this 'please listen to me' gesture, i don't know what to do.
and yet i let her do it. she left my room murmuring that she needs to go to the gym, havent been there for days, and it will clear her head etc., after thanking me for listening. i replied 'no problem'. though i get so many questions having said that phrase.
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