pains

she told me if you have done everything you can, and it's still not getting any better. you should perhaps walk away, cuz there's nothing you can do. let it go because it's nothing you can change. it's not because you're not good enough.

'it's not because you're not good enough'. i thought that was it.

despite constant struggles and clear pains, i still enjoy and desire a lot of things in this world.

and it's ambivalent all the time. i hate how habituality for one conceal, or disguise, the process of naturalisation, and love as much how it for the other creates a deep sense of belonging and identification.

sometimes you're really spending time solving others' problems projected onto you.