someone to go out with

it's occurred to me recently that i don't really have anyone to go out and do things with. and sometimes i wish i did. it'd be good.

most of my life in the third year has been carried out either by myself or with my one or all of housemates. it- the idea that other than my housemates i don't really have anyone- has not really been a serious problem before and now. after all, each year of my phd, things have been different and people/friends around me just come and go. so it's not that difficult to get used to being always accompanied or always left alone. they are just different state of being.

but then again i feel that i can really use some company. it'd be nice to go for a coffee or a meal with someone here. just chit-chatting or not talking at all. just for the sake of knowing that you're comfortable around someone else.

but because phd has been such a solitary work and every one feels more or less isolated anyway. i sometimes don't really see the point of trying to make new friends. it takes so much time and awkwardness before you can really feel comfortable being yourself with somebody else.