netherlands

for some reason, among the many countries that i've been to, there is no netherlands. and it seems quite likely that i will go next year. i am of course not unhappy about it; just quite worried about money to the point of being very undecisive.

restart

nobody knows me here. supposedly.

writing in english provides me something that writing in taditional chinese seems not able to do- which is why i am back in here in this language.

i deleted the last blog that i had because it bored me. no guarantee that i won't feel the same about this one, but at least it's another new start.

maybe i will find the cynical me back again. there was a kind of force and anger in that me when i reread what i wrote in that persona.

(i think it was sars which put a (temporary?) stop to the cynicism because i couldn't afford to be bitter about the world at that time.)